Saturday, January 31, 2009

Laman siya ng isip ko.

SHIN. code name niya.

hi. masaya siguro ang magpost sa blog gamit ang sariling lenggwahe no? ok, para maumpisahan ko na. eto na. as in. oo, eto na. :D

dati, nung una ko siyang makita sa isang christmas party, di ko naman talaga siya kaagad nagustuhan. crush ko lang siya nun. pero oo, inaamin ko, nagustuhan ko kaagad appeal niya kahit di siya ganun kagwapo. oo, solid. ang porma at obvoius na obvious na galante. masaya no? haha. bakit galante? e kasi, fifty pesos lang ang pinagusapang worth ng regalo na ibibigay para sa exchange gift, bakit mga 200-300 pesos ang binili niya? at ang pinaka masaya, ako ang makatatanggap nito! absent ako nung bunutan e. kaya wala akong nabalitaang nakabunot saakin. feeling ko, pinagkait talaga na itago saakin!

ano bang trip ko at knikwento ko siya sainyo? osige, ituloy pa. itago nalang natin siya sa pangalang "shin". para sabihin ko sa inyo, pede niyong pagbalibaligtarin yan para maging malapit sa pangalan niya, pero sure akong di niyo magegets, pare. hahaha. sige, tuluy ko na. paano nga pala ako napunta sa christmas party na yun? ok, sumali ako sa isang contest ng kagandahan at concern sa nature. sa kapaligiran. sa mundo. masaya naman ako dun dahil feeling ko, may talent naman ako at may bagay na tinatawag na "panama"! haha. ok, di ako makapal pero nagsasabi ako ng totoo. yun nga lang, may kasamang pera dahil kailangang magbenta ng tickets na nagkakahalagang dalawang piso bawat isa. lahat lahat, kaylangan mong magbenta ng worth 2,000 pesos para di ka matanggal dahil ang iba rin ay nagbebenta nun! hndi to kotong no! may tiwala ako sa mga officers, gagamitin ito para sa mismong contest! :D ayun matapos ng ilang eliminations, natanggal din ako. :) okay lang dahil alam kong di dahil sa talent kaya ako natanggal, dahil lang naman to sa mga tickets na yun. okay na yun. atleast may popularity na. haha, joke lang! :)) sa mga panahong yun, matagal din akong umiyak. ilang oras din yun sa shoulders ni ira na parang ate ko sa buung grupo na kasali rin sa contest. pagkasakay ko sa sasakyan nina karla na bestfriend ko, na maghahatid din sakin sa bahay. ay nakalimutan ko! habang nasa sasakyan ako, nakita kong may natanggap akong text. di nakaregister. siyempre, susunod na dun ang tanong kong, "who's this?ü". oo, siya na nga yun, si shin na yun. cinongratulate niya ko dahil malayu layo nadin ang narating ko sa contest, kasunod pa sa conversation ang pagpuri niya sa boses ko. masaya siyang katext. nakakatawa at nakakatuwa din. at di nagtagal, naturn on din naman ang pagkakaroon ko ng crush sakanya. ikaw ba nman ang itext ng isang tao na lahat nalang ng gusto mo sa isang lalake ay nasa kanya? musically inclined, magaling sa drums, guitar, bass, at marunong pang magdrive. yuun nga lang, di niya nakuha yung talent na pinakagusto ko, ang kumakanta. yun kasi ang dream ko. kantahan ako ng taong gusto ko.lingid sa kaalaman ko na gusto niya ko. sa swerte ko, noong auditions palang sinusubaybayan na niya ko. mula rin sakanya, iba raw ako sa mga babaeng nakikita at minamahal niya. iba. basta, di niya maeexplain pero may nagsseparate saakin sa ibang mga babae. ang sweet no? para lang masabi ko sainyo, gusto niya akong tawagan lagi sa cellphone. kaso, ayoko. wala lang, nahihiya lang ako sakanya. :D okay na okay na ang lahat. gusto niya ko at gusto ko siya kahit di niya alam. pero, di ko din pala alam na may pinararamdaman din siya na espesyal na feelings ang isang babae na kaibigan ko. at alam naman ni shin yun na kaibigan ko yun. nahuli ko na! at alam din nung kaibigan ko na yun na nakikipaglokohan si shin saming dalawa. at eto ang script ko na nagpatunaw sakanya at magsabi ng sorry ng maraming maraming beses "hoy, gusto mko? oo? alam mo, sa lahat ng ayaw ko ay ang niloloko. ayokong pinapaikot. kung gusto mo si (pangalan ng kaibigan ko) ok! pero wag mo kong idamay sa laro mo. ayoko ng lalake dahil sayo, mula ngayon. inaamin ko, gusto kita. nagulat ka? oo gusto kita. pero ngayon parang mawawala nato. sira ulo ka e! di ka man lang ba kinonsensya nung naisip mo yuun? pinaniwala pa ako. nadoble ka rito pare. SINUNGALING KA. oo, sinungaling ka ng solid! manloloko kapa. grabe. walang sasahol sayo, alam mo? ang sarap mong sapukin. pabugbog kaya kita sa kuya ko? kung malalaman lang niya to, humanda ka." sumagot siya. tapos nagsorry. "anung magagawa ng sorry mo? nangyari na. sira ulo!" nagsorry ulit. tapos sabi niya, di niya sinasadya at di niya inakalang mangyayari to. "di sinasadya? nagiisip kaba? di ba ikaw yung nagiisip ng ginagawa mo? pasalamat ka, di ako nagmumura. kundi baka inulan na tayo ng mura dito." sabi niya, sorry. pinapasabi niya lahat ng gusto kong sabihin para daw mawala galit ko sakanya. "sige. sabi mo eh. ayaw mo nang sinasampal sa harap ng maraming tao dba? ginawa ng ex mo yun. sinabi mo saakin. yun. gusto kitang sampalin sa harap ng maraming tao at ipangalandakan na sinungaling at manloloko ka, sira ulo." pansin na galit ako. pero kalmado at paawa na siya. obvious naman. tumigil nako sa mga harsh words ko. nasabi ko na lahat e. okay na. at hinayaan ko siyang magsalita. "sorry, jhonice. wag na sana tong makakarating sa kuya (pinsan niya na kaclose ko. medjo.)". "oo, sige. wag ka munang magpaparamdam o magtext man lang. ayaw kitang maalala at ang kagag*han na ginawa mo." after nun, wala na.. tapos na kami eh. pag nakikita ko siya, di ko na siya kilala. nagka girlfriend naman siya. at feeling ko, kawawa yung babae. isang biktima nanaman. masaya naman ata sila eh. okay. pakealam ko. wahahaha.

ilang years din, kahit na may contact kami sa isa't isa, wala na akong naffeel, naging friends kamee. pero di yung tipo na masaya ako dahil kaybigan ko siya. hindi no. basta alam ko, okay kami.

one year na, ggraduate nako, two months nalang. pero last year pa siya gumraduate bago ko. nagtest ako sa mga good schools sa manila. pumasa ako sa school na pinapangarap ko kung nasaan siya pero di ko pinapangarap yun dahil nandoon siya. maganda lang talaga ang school na yun at andun ang course na gusto kong kunin. naging close friends kami. dahil araw araw ulit kaming nagttexttext. okay kami. siya pa nga tuming in sa mga results ko sa school na yun kahit wala siyang klase noong mga panahong iyon. ang sweet. nagkakausap kami ulit dahil tumatawag siya ulit. araw araw, paulit ulit, siya ang katext ko. at tama ang nasa isip niyo. bumalik feelings ko sa taong dating tinatawag kong sira ulo. haha. masaya ako pag katext ko siya at lalo na pag nagbibigay siya ng information mula sa school na yun. naaalala pa nga namin nung binigyan niya ko ng regalo nung christmas party at nung ginag* niya ko. naging parte naman daw ng buhay ko yun bakit ko ipagkakaila na nangyari nga yun? natatawa pa ko pag nagseserious kami kapag pinaguusapan ang course na kukunin ko kapag nagaral ako sa school niya at minsan kapag napagtatalunan namin yung kung gaano karami dapat ang itetx na words dahil lang mas marami ang tntext ng isa. hahaha.

ilang weeks lang, nanlamig ako at siya. pero mas siya. namiss ko siya. ewan ko kung bakit. dahil ba nakakatawa siya at ang tawa niya? dahil ba nakakatuwang paglaruan yung boses niyang parang bading? dahil ba nasa kanya ang gusto ko sa isang lalake? aynaku, basta. miss ko siya. kahit di niya alam. tnetext parin niya ko. pero di na nagtatagal. ewan, di ako importante. malamang may gusto siya ngayon kahit na naglolokohan kami na mag-aaply akong maging girlfriend niya na inapela niya. kahit wala naman akong sinabi na gagawin ko yun. nakakatawa nga talaga siya. may sakit pala siya ngayon. di niya alam kung gaano ako nagaalala at nagppray na sana gumaling ni siya. nakakamiss yung kabaliwan niya. friends lang naman kami a. kaso, mukhang nagbabalik yung feelings ko para sakanya. mahal ko na nga kaya siya ulit? is love sweeter the second time around?

Friday, January 30, 2009

THE FIELDTRIP

have you ever experienced that everything started wrong and ended up perfectly? maybe that's the best question to describe my day.

today is the day for our FIELD TRIP.
before the special day, Sheena & Nhey decided to sleep over our house. so that the transportation would be a lot easier. that night, i was having this certain sickness in the throat. woooh, it really hurts badly, but you know what hurts most? i don't have my normal voice. i have this thick and super eew voice that i can't deny that is so a "no no" for me. the day came, and as far as i'm concerned, i am the one who will lead the prayer before travelling, but how can i do that without the voice. take note, my voice was terribly not heard if you will not listen well. wow huh? XD there came, i asked Sheena to lead the prayer for me. travel, so boring and everything, but as we go to the museums, i just realized that great are the lessons and earnings we got form the trip. lastly, the amusement park. i was not that excited about the park because i already went there for a lot of times. and unluckily, that place never changed ever since! so, i was not that happy at that place. but i was blessed enough for i have my best buds with me! we posed in front of a ride and imagine although the thing we were doing was quite eww for others, we didn't mind it. they're all out of our business. :D and as we came back to the bus, we were crashing back there, we took a lot of pictures (when i say a lot, i mean a LOT!) and voila! everything happened on the right track, that was what i've realized. although it started wrongly, it'll turn out perfectly. :) thank you, best peers! :)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Usual School Day. Ü


a day at my High School.

hi. what are the requirements in a blog? i guess, having a lot of words isn't. so, today, as usual, is oh so tiring. i bet a lot of us had been at high school, but i guess being at my school is far different with yours. kilometers of walking is what we do everyday! XD haha. I've got a lot of quizzes tomorrow, so i cannot say a lot here. i posted a picture of what i look like when i reach home. :)) do i look tired? guess yea! ok, as usual, i saw all my admired guys. well, i think i did not see all of em, but one is enough to make my day great. ^^ laughs. oh, i remember, I'm more confused now! I don't really know where to study yet! know why? Jimbbo started to butt in my "decision area" inside my brain. He brainwashed me and now I don't know where to study, but i decided to conduct a survey. a survey where I'll ask my friends and family members what school they favor more. and, if ever people may read this, comments about my college course would be highly appreciated!

You know, i'm more serious with my studies now. so i better go and review now. :D

Monday, January 26, 2009

my past days, weeks were such a blast.

my past days, weeks were such a blast.

First, he forgot to remember that there was a girl in waiting.
Second, career fair.
Third, fail! (but I'll not)
Fourth, sweetest guy best friend.

Fifth, the guy with a red lanyard. (and a mom!)

1. he forgot to remember me.
a certain guy, of course. i thought he was a fine guy that i can trust. well, not only because he's one of the luckiest that I'll be asking for help if ever I'll be lost in manila, but also, he was friend at high school. He was a person that belongs to my past blahblah. Forgive me for using the term. i feel comfort every time i say that instead of saying another word. In short, he was once my lover (i think). Yea, because those days, i liked him too. Okay, lemme tell you the history. i knew him at a Christmas party with the nice looks. ;) laughs. we didn't talk. i did notice his eyes, his voice, and his outfit (that i liked the most). but i didn't take the time to be friends with him because i thought he was just another guy that I’ll be smiling at. Nothing more, nothing less. and as time pass by, he secretly took my number from a friend. and yea, there snapped a thing that i thought would make me happy. i thought he'll love me. :D i think, only for a while but naah, it broke easily. haha! Then, we started to forget each other. no message from him at all. but, we still have each other's number. After less than a year, we started to be good friends. not only good but better than good. :)) We text each other and everything! we started to be close again and we often share thoughts about music. he called, I blushed. oml. (oh my life.) haha. I’m liking him once more! haha. we crack jokes and we laugh over a phone. XD and like after weeks, we lost not the texting connection but the thing that we always laugh, we smile over a text, he forgot about the spark that i really witnessed in me and of course, i was not sure of what he felt while i was in deep falling. he forgot about me. i think, he forgot about the thing that he'll help me at my future school. oh, i forgot, i was nothing though. i like him and i miss him soo. And I guess, all I can say about this is: he forgot about me that was really in waiting.

2. Career fair

It’s really hard for a girl like me with no sure passions and no sure favored jobs to choose a perfect course. You know, one of the things that I get conscious with is the future thiing. I’m not that sure of what field I’ll be in one day.

At our career fair, an event that'll be held at our campus. There will be representatives of schools that will explain how their schools work. You know, none of them brainwashed me. :)) i guess, it would still take time preparing for my tomorrow, but i guess, i should decide now because I’m graduating two months from now. i wish I'll know what really is right for me. Will anyone help me here?? :P

3. Fail?

My parent was wanted and called by my physics teacher. why? i didn't come to school. You think the reason's too small? naah, it really helped me a lot. When ma'am viray talked to her, she told my mom that i had bad grades on her subject. When my mom told me so, there was an instant snap in me that really made me think how nothing i am to have bad grades even though the teacher is really great in teaching! that happened last week and I’ve started to dream to be on the top 10. Not only top10, but I’ll be the top one. Really! i participate now on recitations, my quizzes are soo wow. I feel great about this, men. I love it. I’ll achieve my goaal. i will! :D

4. My sweetest guy best friend

Reginald James, his name. But, I oftenly call him jimbbo. I called him jimbbo a few days ago. Aren’t you familiar with the nickname I’m calling him? Jimmy neutron is called jimbbo by his dad. I liked it and I wanted to call reg with the name. Cute huh? Reg is a church friend. My family and his are friends. So friends. I first knew jimbbo at a camp. We were in one team. We were not that close er, but we surely clicked after months. And we became friends then. Enough of this filthy history.

Haha. Jimbbo is as sweet as a little brother. (He’s older than me, dude!) haha. Several days ago, we had time to talk about his problem or should I call it realization trial? :D and yep, we were as close as best friends or siblings. He really is super sweet as a lil brother. And he considers me to be his lil sister. (I think.) haha. I should be honest. I’m afraid to lose jimbbo and his family especially his sister who is really precious to me. I think, after college, they’ll be leaving to be in America. I’ll miss him, I promise. Waah. (reg, ala ku atang atype kening space ayni. Hahaha. Metamad ku e.) ooh, sorry, that’s a message for him. :)) I love you, best friend jimbbo. :D

5. the guy with a red lanyard. (and a mom!)

I’ve got nothing to say with this. Haha. I just remembered how his face looked like when I saw him at a mall. Joel, an old classmate. He was as cute as me. He has the appeal that I have. Kidding aside, I saw him. He’s with his mom. XD nothing more! :D I missed him.

Well uh, that’s all. Until the next time I’ll post. Xoxo.