WARNING. ♥

ang post sa ilalim ng post na ito ay bunga ng matinding inip!
wag masamain. tinamad lang ako. at saksakan ng kaasaran ang nararamdaman ko nung tinatype ko yan.
pagpasensyahan ha. :DD

Labyou.

Pwede pagreet?
Pwede! nasa linya kana!

Greet ko lang ang inspirasyon ko sa buhay. Si anime. Wala lang. Cute lang siya. Nakita niyo na ba? Sa mga classmate ko, ang buhay dentista ay hindi panglahat. Laglagan na sa proper. Galingan natin dahil mahal ko kayo. ü
Pagreet nadn kay hannah, kish, gail, rachel at hazel. hahaha. anu ba yan, anung trip to? ang baduy ko. XD thank you din sa mga radicals. mahal ko kayo. especially sa mga kapatid ko at sa mga bestfriends ko. :) Siyempre sa mga dormates ko. Labyou! ü At huli, sa family ko na lab ko. mwah! yun lang. napagreet tuloy ako.

At ayun, tara northwalk!!!

A Dream No One Would Face...

I was in the middle of my deep sleep. When he, using his psycho abilities, entered my mind. I cannot see the point why he'll have to set up his mind in saying Sorry through a dream. And there, he came, I wasn't able to escape. He walked nearer. "Can't we be again?", He asked. At that point, I can't make up an answer. I can't find any reason why to say no though I really had a lot of it if ever we accidentally talk to each other. I prepared for this, but why can't I tell him we're done? why can't I slap him and tell him enough is enough? why? why, when I see him, I melt? why when I reminisce, I cry? Why do I always ask people around me the reason why he did not choose who's better, me? Why, when I ask myself what's been wrong and all I could blame is myself? what is the reason why I cannot sleep at night? Give me the reason why he has always to be numb whenever people are asking what happened? "Can't we be again?" Is that what he has to ask me that night? In that dream? Everybody knows how I love him. And how I hate loving him. him, that has a girl. How can we ever be when all he had to do is not stop being the boyfriend of a girl who never stopped choking him for him to be hers only. Can't we be again? Is that it? Us, but he's the boyfriend of a girl?
At the moment, I paused. Then, I answered, "Is that all you can ask? No more?" He looked me in my eyes. Deeply. I understood. I assumed he did too. I know he's the best thing that ever happened to me, but why can't I be the best for him? why should I always be the second?--- the second to be called on the phone, the second priority on a hearts' day, the second to be stared at on a graduation, the second to be sang for, the second. the second girl. Why should I always be the one to suffer?
then He said, "I just can't leave her now, but one day I will." "One day you will? One day when I die? One day when you too will? One day when I forget about you? One day when I get married? One day? One day that is so uncertain? One day that you cannot even be sure of? No girl with a normal mind would even wait for that", I harshly answered. "Don't you love me? I so do.", He said then embraced me. "I do, but I won't be able to anymore." I whispered. "Hold on. Just hold on for a little while. Please..", He uttered. That moment, the time itself stopped. I held him, looked in his eyes, then said, "If you do love me, you already proved it long time ago, but you never did." I tried to walk away. Thinking I'll be alright. Reminiscing the times we held each other's hand. The time he first embraced me. the time the tears first fell because of him. I wasn't able to control it. Tears again fell because of him then I suddenly felt his chest behind me. He hugged me tightly, turned me, then kissed me. I cannot hide it, but I love the way everything goes that time. It took a long time then I whispered, "We can't be anymore. people get hurt. I get hurt. I won't be able to wait.. I'm sorry. I love you. I love you. Goodbye." He tried to kiss me once again, but I pushed him away. then he looked at me deeply in my eyes and He said, "All I really wanted is you. The girl I want to love, but you too are the girl I can't love. I love you. Goodbye." then he faded..

It's not that I do not like you anymore. I just don't feel you to be back and that I create a mistake again in love. My friends are right. It was a mistake, a big one, and I should get my lesson from it. It's called avoidance. Avoidance from getting hurt, from mistakes, from wrong things that can be prioritized. See. Life isn't all about puppy love. Life's about getting into right things that you can involve yourself. Life's about eschewal of things that you need not to indulge in. For me, It's a nice thing that you make a mistake then not do it again otherwise you'll make things worse. whoa. I can't seem to pull my desire of writing. gawwd.