Life's intteruptions are God's invitations :)

Life's interruptions are God's invitations. You brought me, Lord, back into your presence. And I'm not the only one who's glad. Well I may have brought disappointments, but shall I do everything to bring you back all glory and to bring back my family's joy for God's name's sake :)

Sometimes, you need to scream shit.

I just couldn't contain things anymore. Things I just gotta spill even though you're all clueless about it. I'm not to be called freaking out but I hate complications. I really really hate complications especially when I'm talked about, I cause stress, I get looked down, I get checked and investigated and observed. I don't even feel friends when things get complicated. I hate this when all I know is I'm justifying my own self because I know myself better. I hate it when they all do not know me.

Mom told me I need not to please anyone of them because she listens to me and she will always do.

I cried for the reason of I'm getting watched and that they do not believe me. But sorry, I'm neither bullshitting myself, nor my parents.

Step back, I hate how you get into my business.

Whoever reads this: Shut your mouth.

Sige. Pranka na kung pranka. Pero di ikaw ang kailangan ko.

Oh nanu? Haha. Pakyalam ku keka :))

I smile naughtily, honey bee.

And yeah. Hell, eat this: I don't need somebody like you to color and spice up my lovely and over gorgeous life. Not thinking of the people who loves me. I'll stay like this, happy, glad, joyous and all. Whatever happiness may get described of. You know what? I guess, you've been a big part of me, but always remember, never assume, honey bee. I don't give a damn often. So, good luck for pissing me off a lot and you don't even know and feel you cause me it. Listen to my HA-HA-HA :)) I'll be waving goodbye after a while. Got it? Eat it well, baby!

Parent ba?

"Mas maganda na ang nagtatanong keysa sa mali ang magagawa mo dahil hindi ka nagtanong!"
--Pag naman nagtanong ka, sisigawan kapa na parang bobo ka't walang naiintindihan.
"Pag kinakausap kita, tumingin ka saken!"
--Pero pag siya naman ang kausap mo, hindi nakikinig. Sasaraduhan kapa ng pinto.
"Patapusin mo muna ko! Hindi pa ko tapos eh!"
--Pero pag ikaw na nagsasalita, wala pang tatlong salita, dada na siya. Baraado ka agad.

ANU BA TO? GAGUHAN?!

Please know, I miss you.

It's good to have prioritized things well now. I have said goodbye to those I need to leave even when it's deeply heartbreaking. Yes, I miss that someone I left just because I needed to for my parents wanted me to do it. And yeah, of course, it's not yet the right time. For my future? Yea, I understand that it's quite merely connected to it. But you know, every friend I have told about it calls me of describes how I feel as miserable. I am miserable. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't even ask for my heart's opinion about it for I know it wouldn't give a very nice advice or command. I've been numb before. You wouldn't wanna ask how numb I was before I met him. But you know, things had changed because of his actions, his effort, his attitude, his looks maybe, his sincerity and his kindness too. I have been missing a very big part of me since I lost you. Can I talk to you? Could I even know when will I see you again? Could I even fast forward the time so that I'll know if it's the two of us in the end? Cause these questions have been bugging me all the time. To know if i'm disturbed with them, I don't know. I really don't know. Do you even miss me? Do you even care to call up when my birthday comes? Do you still love me? You know, I guess, the months have been cold since the communication stopped. The long months have been killing me like there's fire burning on my feet like telling me to get back to where we used to be. To where the moments I've been missing. Then I sighed. Today.. I choose to shut my mouth about how I feel for you until this moment. I choose not to talk and talk about it, but to write whatever I need to express. Whatever I may want to tell you personally. Whatever I may imagine. Could be one time we laugh together, walk long meters together, moments of curiosity about the earth, times like when I get confused of how you feel about me, times when we get angry about things we don't wanna happen, times of feeling numb of each other, you know moments that we wanted to cherish for like ever, those days of being free from getting scolded, times we wouldn't mind about the time, times we would choose to talk instead of eating, times we wouldn't care of people seeing us together... But you know? I miss you. I miss you so much that often times, I reminisce not realizing I'm staring at nothing. Then I'm thinking, this life is miserable. Not that I'm desperate, but it is really what I am feeling right now. I know the vices, I know the world, I know how to drink and get drunk as if there are no more days to come, I get curious of smoking, but when I see you, your face, see things which makes me remember you, see even your social networking accounts.. seeing you, I forget my wrongs. Then, I suddenly get back to the memories we had. The memories we have for each other. Things we often tell each other. Things... Everything about you. Everything about you makes me forget everything that shall pull me away from the normality of my life. All in all, disregarding the outer effects of earth and the effects that my parents, my friends could give... forgetting all of those, Please know that I miss you. I miss you so much..

One day, I will be waking up inside my own room, my own house, my own college dentistry degree, stable and loving each blessing God may give me... The time that everything's balanced and on its own right track.. The moment that everyone may call the perfect time for me to get back on my feet and to realize.. today, I may love you..